Much has been going on lately and I was back to lazy mode which prompt me to ignore my blog :P
The thought of wanting to blog was always quickly diverted to something else which explains that I am procrastinating and lazy to think of what to write.
I kinda abandoned my twitter at one point, only logging in to check if anyone messaged me.
I was back to lazy mode because I was stressed out by a lot of things.
My first and foremost concern is nothing else but Super Junior's coming concert.
I wanted to go for rockpit but faced a shortage of funds.
In the end, I decided to go for the cheapest one as I felt that it would be better to attend than to not attend.
But the problemo was, I don't know how to tell my parents that I want to go.
My sis and bro were fine with it and my sister initially chipped in some money for me to go.
The second problemo is about where to study, what to study, scholarships, and wanting to study in Korea.
I wanted to go to UTAR since it's cheaper but the only thing that bothers me is I have to go to Kampar to further my studies.
Honestly, I want to go to a school which is more diverse in sense that they have more international students.
But I was thinking, the fees come first but then I thought that I am the one who is going to study.
I should choose somewhere I like.
So I kinda wanna go to UCSI now.
Besides all of that, I have to keep an eye on scholarships...aih..
I want to study in Korea but it will definitely be a 'No.'
So I decided not to mention anything about that.
Next would be my SPM results.
Who is not worried, tell me.
My coming driving exam is also killing me.
I have no confidence and I'm left with only 3 more hours of practice.
Lastly, my braces.
Talk from the starting of the year till now, I haven't fucking got my braces yet.
Appointment in two more weeks and if that doesn't work out either, curses.
I need them before I start school!
But today as I am blogging, some of this problemo have been solved.
My Super Junior concert and Mich's home party are already known by my parents.
Nothing dramatic happen, thank god.
I'm going to UCSI on their open day to check out more on their course and hopefully I'll end up there.
All that's left is the driving exam, braces and my SPM results.
Another thing that I'm glad off is that all this will be happening before my SPM results.
At least if I have a bad result, I'm okay with grounding because there will be no events for me. Hopefully.
The other day I attended my mum's friend's son's wedding in Times Square Hotel.
Everything was not too bad.
The only thing that made me really uncomfortable was the fact that I was sitting with all my mum's classmates.
Obviously, they asked my mum what course will I be taking later.
I hate it when my mum kinda tell them in a way something like, 'She wants to study in English but I don't know her la.'
That kind of she wants this but I don't really like it that kind of thing.
Hel-looo!
I'm beside you woman.
Watch what you are talking.
Lucky one of my aunty told my mum to let me study whatever I wanted to study.
I smiled her to comfort myself and to thank her.
My continued with those 'I wished she could study something else' shit.
Who cares.
Another friend and her tomboy partner told me it would be good to study English language and I it would be better if I took up Chinese.
Sometimes I wonder whether it's normal for outsiders to support you more than your fam.
When that topic ended, boy was I relieved!
A lot of things happened but I can't seem to remember any.
Maybe they aren't that important.
Oh just now, my dad told my mum that one of these Friday nights, members from the Buddhist centre will come to our place to send away one of the Gods and ancestors.
He said it is so, so that we no need to use the incense for them anymore.
I was bewildered.
My mum got angry of course.
The thing is, my dad should not have plan everything and then only tell us.
This is no small matter.
He should have SUGGESTED it first.
My eyes went all watery, even now when I'm typing this.
I felt what my mum said was true.
We shouldn't send away someone who has helped to take care and protect us.
It's so eff true.
And the moment my dad said that, I felt like he was sending someone close to me away.
I can never, never accept that.
Anyways, my dad also one more.
He doesn't have to do the incense burning thing, my mum does it every morning so how is it bothering him to send them away?
But lucky he told me that he cancelled everything.
Now I'm crying for joy.
I'm not very superstitious like those aunties but there are some things that must be followed.
Sending your ancestors away is like sending your parents away.
What the fuck.
Haven't been saying 'fuck' for a long time.
I feel so awkward using it.
Now I have one mission to do.
My dad knows my mum is not gonna talk to him so he ask me to tell her that he cancelled everything.
I'll be telling her soon.
Anyways, I need to go watch something to lose all these fuckyness.
This post is making me down.
I need to have fun tonight at Mich's place.
Mich, SBS mine tonight :D thank you :)
