SO IT'S THE END OF ACCOUNTS!!! :D
Hopefully I pass because retaking it for next sem is disastrous.
Let me repeat, DISASTROUS, for me..I might get sick just by the thought of it.
Anyway, getting a passing grade is already enough for me.
So, one numerical related subject down, another to go which I will be taking next sem, Quantitative Method.
Now, final paper for Psychology of Adjustment and Writing for Academic Purpose will be on next week and after that my sem break will start till 5th of September! :D
Let's not dwell there, let's dwell in what I wanted to say yesterday.
Before that, there's a Sims game on FB which is annoyingly crashing the whole freaking time!
How am I supposed to up level like this?! D:
First of all, I never once thought that A is a not so nice guy.
I mean, maybe during that time, I might have spoken ill about him but that was because it was 'that' time.
But in actual fact, when you think back of the good times, he is actually really decent.
And it was I who wanted to end things.
Now, B, he is, I have to admit, physically better than A.
Other than that, A gets the trophy.
I didn't want to compare but I just had to..
B is full of excuses..really..
I cannot tolerate excuses and beating around the bush game.
At least A is much more straight forward.
People say that first loves are really because of blindness but looking back, I wasn't blind at all.
I didn't just liked a random guy but a guy that I can actually relate to.
About B, I think I rushed into it though we were not official but we kinda were.
He might be older but at times I think he is still childish.
The mentality.
I need a guy who can press me down, I'm wild.
Wild mustang.
Anyhow, I'm glad that I walked out of B before it's too late.
The moment I knew I cannot tolerate this kind of behavior, I chose to walk out.
Call me bitch, whatever, everyone is selfish.
Everyone wants to find their happiness.
All these thoughts all made me miss A but we are good friends now.
That's really great.
I mean, hello~ who is still in good terms with their first boyfriend/girlfriend?
:)
All in all, I've learnt a little bit on the feelings part.
I should stop having crushes on every single hot guy I see because those are not crushes but infatuations.
Which is why I expect the feeling for 'like' to be much more stronger and 'love', going crazy.
Yeah, it's the process of learning while growing up.
You think you have a crush on the guy but actually you don't.
You like the guy but you are only having a crush on him.
You say you love him but actually you only like him.
Anyhow, now is so not the suitable time to get myself involved in any relationships.
Because I know I can never find a guy now that can give me all the things I want.
So, why waste the time when you have so much to choose in the future?
For me now, enjoy life and take care of myself.
Lord, how to take care of someone else when you can't take care of yourself.
Korean class tomorrow and after that, cheer practice.
Goodnight :)
